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Saturday, February 11, 2006

Watching "I'm not stupid too" made me tear. It made me sad about the lifestyle we live in today's society where people are constantly being ranked from the tender age of 10 years old, with this bull we call streaming. And then there's the PSLE, Secondary 2 streaming, O levels, A levels, first class honours, and finally when you start working. What happened to this equality we routinely chanted while we were at school-the pledge. What about those less fortunate, who can't even afford a good education? Those they deserve another chance? Ex convicts? Why does society stereotype them as "hopeless" and even "useless" Afterall, it's the enviroment that they've been brought up in that depicts how they behave so it isn't entirely their fault. I'm sure there's good in everyone. Just that some people are blinded by their own pride to see the good in them.

Another thing said in the show which was very true was "When was the last time someone praised you and encouraged you?" and vice versa. To be honest, there are a few who have. Some whom I expected to encourage me etc, didn't. Is it that difficult? Are people like us too proud too see the good in anyone else? Why do we all have this mentality that "we're the best"? It's a sad sad world we live in.

But then again, the world can't be perfect. If only everyone could change easily.

Singapore has been good to me. Really going to miss the people here! It's like my whole network of people comes and goes in 6 months. It's quite frustrating really. But at the end, you'll truely know who's still there for you and who's not. Those who are, thank you.

i crapped since 2/11/2006 01:48:00 AM

Sunday, January 08, 2006

Someone once told me, "Fairytales do not exist". Though it might be a very subjective topic, personally I believe that there is a fairytale out there for everyone. Every person's journey through life can be taken as a fairytale journey unlike any other. Take our local favourites for example, Cinderella or even Snow white. Both with different adventures and different worlds, but still a fairytale of it's own. In fairytales, love is often the factor that perserveres and remains faithful at the end. A friend described the meaning of love very well.

'Love always perseveres. Unrequited love is tragic; however, if you love a person and you persevere knowing he or she doesn't reciprocate, then that is love. Love transcends the storms of life and relationships. Love doesn't depend on the other party's response, nor on his or her strengths, nor on their physical qualities. True love is unconditional, and unconditional love is perfect.Perfect love hung from a cross for an ungrateful world.' - Michelle Yeo

And so, the difference between my fairytale and others, is simply because I choose to believe in it. And I await that day when my fairytale blossoms.

Anyway, this song has really been an encouragement to me the past few months and it'll continue to be. I think it's a really meaningful song and it's very touching =)

Blessed be your name

Blessed be your name
In the land that is plentiful
Where the streams of abundance flow
Blessed be your name
Blessed be your name

When I'm found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed be your name
Every blessing you pour out,
I turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in,
LordStill I will say...
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be your glorious name

Blessed be your name
When the sun's shining down on me
When the world's all as it should be
Blessed be your name
Blessed be your name
On the road marked with suffering
Oh, There's pain in the offering
Blessed be your name

Every blessing you pour out
,I turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in,
LordStill I will say...
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be your glorious name

You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to stay
Blessed be your name

i crapped since 1/08/2006 03:03:00 AM

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

Love always perseveres.
Love always endures.
Love will always bring us through,
obstacles that seem impossible to bend.
If true, it'll always be there at the end.

From the moment I met you
I just knew you'd be mine
You touched my hand
And I knew that this was gonna be our time
I don't ever wanna lose this feeling
I don't wanna spend a moment apart

Chorus:'Cos you bring out the best in me, like no-one else can do
That's why I'm by your side,
and that's why I love you

Every day that I'm here with youI know that it feels right
And I've just got to be near you every day and every night
And you know that we belong together
It just had to be you and me

Chorus... And you know that we belong together,
It just had to be you and me '
Cos you bring out the best in me, l
ike no-one else can do
That's why I'm by your side
'Cos you bring out the best in me,
like no-one else can doT
hat's why I'm by your side,
and that's why I love you'
Cos you bring out the best in me, like no-one else can do
That's why I'm by your side, and that's why I love you

i crapped since 1/03/2006 11:48:00 PM

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

I've found this really suitably lovely template which suits my new theme. It's just going to be "me" from now on. No more pretending, no more holding back. Therefore, I've decided to re-blog because I want to and maybe because, I'm just really bored.

Singapore has been fabulous so far. Been meeting up with loads and loads of people of whom, I really enjoy. Results were out not long ago, and God has been gracious and merciful this year. Very in fact. Above what I expected in comparison to my effort put in. He has been good though I must confess, I haven't been a very good christian this year and neither have I been a very good testimony.

This year has been a year of hurt for many, a year of disaster, a year of grief but nevertheless, a year of hope. I am no exception. I simply cannot wait for the night of 31st december at 11.59pm, where we bring in the new year, where everything starts afresh again, and when hope begins to blossom once more. It might be a new beginning, but then again, would it really?

Most people start thinking of their new year's resolution only later on. For me, I couldn't be more joyous to do mine.

1) Get serious about Jesus.
2) Get involved
3) Learn a new skill( a language or a new instrument)
4) be yourself.

I shan't be greedy and add more to the list simply because that's quite a handful to deal with already.

Sometimes I still lay down thinking, is my heart still there? There's this feeling of nostalgia, a bittersweet longing. I know I can't, but it's there to be seen, so why hide? Why cover that part of the emptiness? It's no use. I just hope the choices people make are choices that they themselves can be proud making.

With that, I end and slowly await the start of the new year.

i crapped since 12/21/2005 02:05:00 AM

Monday, November 14, 2005

I just arrived in Singapore. I'm happy. =) This entry is probably going to be my last.

While on the plane, I had much time to think about all the various thoughts in my head. And then, I went on a romantic movie spree with all the nice lovely romantic shows on the inflight system. It reminded me alot about everything. With all the time in the world, I found myself asking, what is love?

Many try to understand what love is, many try to run away from it, but for me, I want to go through it. Simply, there's no clear definition for love besides that of the bible, but other than that, it's what people make love out to be individually that determines what it actually is.

I look and see how people will go all way out just for love. Some suffer, some die, but eventually when they found it, it was all worth it. And I ask myself, can I go for what I want? Can I go for what I love? I tried escaping from that, to act like I didn't care, but at the end of the day, I break down and cry, because I still do. In that 7.5 hours I had, I came to one conclusion. Yes, I can go for it. It doesn't have to be now, but time and commitment will show.

What can I do with a disastrous situation in front of me, a barrier so high that seems so hard to climb? I'm going to drill through the barrier if I have to. Why I do this? Simply because I love.

And then it came down to the last movie. I watched beauty and the beast. It was so sweet and really, it showed me alot of how love truly exist. Though there might be obstacles(the prince being a beast), with much love, it can be overcomed when finally the spell was broken. It brings hope.

I whispered, "I am too young,"
And then, "I am old enough";
Whereon I threw a penny
To find out if I might love.
"Go and love, go and love, young man,
If the lady be young and fair."
Ah, penny, brown penny, brown penny,
I am looped in the loops of her hair.

O love is the crooked thing,
There is nobody wise enough
To find out all that is in it,
For he would be thinking of love
Till the stars had run away
And the shadows had eaten the moon.
Ah, penny, brown penny, brown penny,
One cannot begin it too soon.

It's going to be a long journey ahead. Help me with it if you care because I know I surely do. Until the next time.

ILY.

i crapped since 11/14/2005 03:25:00 AM